Hello, my name is Tori and i have had depression for about four years now. A week and a half ago my boyfriend broke up with me, and i have been a total mess. i have barley moved from my bed, i barley eat and sleep, I’m forced to take showers and i haven’t attended school. I want to die so badly, I don’t want to feel the pain anymore, I just want it to all go away. About a week ago i made a pretty lame attempt to kill myself, I took an assortment of about 50 pills, and my brain felt like soup the next day. Now I am looking for a way out that will definitely kill me. I have thought about hanging myself and have even made a noose, but i don’t want my family to find me hanging somewhere. Another way i think i might try is the exit bag, but i know that i cant get my hands on helium, so i would have to try without. I like this a lot more than hanging myself but its not a concrete as i would like it to be. If i were to use an exit bag, first i would have to make one with an elastic drawstring (I’ll work on that tomorrow) then i was thinking I would take some sleeping pills, not a lot, just enough to keep me good and knocked out for a while. I also need to find some way to keep it open when I’m conscious, but my hands would need to be restrained to keep me from pulling it off once i lose consciousness. Anyone got any ideas that could help me? Or suggestions of a way better than the exit bag or hanging? I would greatly appreciate it, thank you.
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I’m going through i brake up right now it just happened this past weekend. It hurts so bad that there hasnt been a minute that i don’t think about killing myself to just stop the pain. But if you kill yourself you still wont be any closer to being happy. You’ll still be in pain and depressed while your doing it. Just hang in there ok i know that its the last thing you wanna think about doing but please consider it. Time heals i swear you just need to fix yourself and focus on the positive in life and its there but when your depressed you tend to over look it. Maybe once you feel better with your self you can try and see if you can work things out with your ex bf and if not then move on. Its better to fight and try to be happy then to just quit trying. So please don’t do it.
time heals nothing. life will always be miserable, the question is: how much can one bear? When you’re at the point that you’re so broken that you can barely even get out of bad or leave the house or take a shower then you’re not really viable anymore and a humiliating existence in some mental hospital constantly so much drugged that you can barely keep your eyes open, that is not an existence i’d prefer over death.
My method involves lots of alcohol, aspirin (to increase the alcohol in the blood) and antihistamines (to further induce coma and reduce nausea from all the alcohol. When this is finished and hands would slip off the rubber band around the neck, the body should be shut down so much that the panic reaction shouldn’t set in and one would suffocate without feeling anything.
I’m not suggesting anything to anyone. If you feel like you can go on and want to go on, then do it!!
Rocky90 i agree with you time doesn’t heal shit. And a mental hospital is where there trying to put me, so i need to succeed before then. i like the idea of talking pills to pass out, thats what im going to do, but i really dont have access to a lot of medicine. So i think i might drink some to, not a lot, just enough to help me pass out. But i think im still going to find some way to restrain my hands just to make sure they dont try to save me.
alina_01 i dont want to do it but i cant live like this.