Hello, my name is Tori and i have had depression for about four years now. A week and a half ago my boyfriend broke up with me, and i have been a total mess. i have barley moved from my bed, i barley eat and sleep, I’m forced to take showers and i haven’t attended school. I want to die so badly, I don’t want to feel the pain anymore, I just want it to all go away. About a week ago i made a pretty lame attempt to kill myself, I took an assortment of about 50 pills, and my brain felt like soup the next day. Now I am looking for a way out that will definitely kill me. I have thought about hanging myself and have even made a noose, but i don’t want my family to find me hanging somewhere. Another way i think i might try is the exit bag, but i know that i cant get my hands on helium, so i would have to try without. I like this a lot more than hanging myself but its not a concrete as i would like it to be. If i were to use an exit bag, first i would have to make one with an elastic drawstring (I’ll work on that tomorrow) then i was thinking I would take some sleeping pills, not a lot, just enough to keep me good and knocked out for a while. I also need to find some way to keep it open when I’m conscious, but my hands would need to be restrained to keep me from pulling it off once i lose consciousness. Anyone got any ideas that could help me? Or suggestions of a way better than the exit bag or hanging? I would greatly appreciate it, thank you.