yesterday i figured out another way inflict pain on myself. i forgot how strong i am when i’m really pissed. so i smacked my arm a couple times and my forearm was red. my younger brother completely pissed me off yesterday. i dont understand why he has to be such a brat. and my sister thinks everything is a frickin game. why is it that every little thing pisses me off. i really need therapy. Burning doesnt help much, but hitting my hands and arms against stuff helps a bit i feel much better. i actually almost broke my wrist by hitting it as hard as i could against the cinder block walls of my high school. my yelled at me for that one, and i only ended up doing it again. so that was a waist of time. i guess there is no stopping what i’ve already started. but in some light on the situation i won’t be doing anything stupid because my best friend is coming over to my house today. yay!!! i feel weird maybe cuz i havent taken my meds. im such a nut right now.. my friends think im bonkers. i think i need to take my meds. depending on the rest of my day and my mood, i may get back on later and rant about something else.
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I couldn’t be able to hit myself. But I do have a lot of negative thoughts and emotions in my mind, and that hurts.
ya i know how that is. but sometimes when i lose my temper and i’d rather not get suspended for hitting someone, i take it out on myself and sadly the wall always wins.
be careful with not taking your meds when they’re meds against depression, cause the side effects will get soo much worse if you instantly stop with it. IF you want to stop, you have to stop slowly but first ask your doctor how to stop, he’ll help. instead of hitting yourself, isn’t it an option for you to take martial-arts classes like kickboxing or karate?so you can beat your anger away.