I am too relatively new here. I have been unemployed for one whole year. IÂ have applied for numerous jobs. But rejected one after another.However. Now. I have lost all will to live.I have other personal problem’s happen to me. PriorÂ to that .Â IÂ wasÂ thrown out of home approximatelyÂ Â Â threeÂ times. The third was at a friends place i came home from my job and i just couldn’t get over the fact to endure again seeing all my personal belongings out under the car port. I was crying my eyes out with tears streaming down my face. Luckily. At that present time my sister was aÂ live thatÂ took me in otherwise homeless.But I feel now that perhaps suicide is the only option out of the emotional hell that i have to endure on a daily basis. Having no job and now have to face other personal problems in this fucked up life.. So Â I was considering two optionsÂ Â Â : Driving off a cliff atÂ high speed, Or otherÂ ,Â carbon monoxide poisoning Â from my car. Death, doesn’t really scare me because i wasÂ present at the hospital when my sister wasÂ diagnose with some internal cancer at theÂ age of Â 37. However.When the doctors, informed her she will die before Christmas.And she did.
So. Going back to my first option, driving off a cliff at high speeds. definitively reduces the chances of survival.Â What’s the point of living.When fucken humans themselves do not really understand what you can go through on a regular daily basis.When, every other human bastard has gone to work. and yourÂ leftÂ home,dealing with the emotionalÂ hellÂ .No job. No money. You know what. Fuck Life. When the time comes.There’ll be no good byes, My soul won’t have to endure such emotional suffering, like my fucken physical being did.