I am too relatively new here. I have been unemployed for one whole year. I have applied for numerous jobs. But rejected one after another.However. Now. I have lost all will to live.I have other personal problem’s happen to me. Prior to that . I was thrown out of home approximately   three times. The third was at a friends place i came home from my job and i just couldn’t get over the fact to endure again seeing all my personal belongings out under the car port. I was crying my eyes out with tears streaming down my face. Luckily. At that present time my sister was a live that took me in otherwise homeless.But I feel now that perhaps suicide is the only option out of the emotional hell that i have to endure on a daily basis. Having no job and now have to face other personal problems in this fucked up life.. So  I was considering two options   : Driving off a cliff at high speed, Or other , carbon monoxide poisoning  from my car. Death, doesn’t really scare me because i was present at the hospital when my sister was diagnose with some internal cancer at the age of  37. However.When the doctors, informed her she will die before Christmas.And she did.
So. Going back to my first option, driving off a cliff at high speeds. definitively reduces the chances of survival. What’s the point of living.When fucken humans themselves do not really understand what you can go through on a regular daily basis.When, every other human bastard has gone to work. and your left home,dealing with the emotional hell .No job. No money. You know what. Fuck Life. When the time comes.There’ll be no good byes, My soul won’t have to endure such emotional suffering, like my fucken physical being did.
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Hey are you from Australia?
i feel you man, my dad is going thru the same thing.
I’m somewhat sorry, but is that really it? You want to die because your sister died, you have no job, or money? – There are numerous alternatives for money than just having a job. I sound like a d-bag, but you must be disappointing your dead sister by wishing for suicide.
Sounds like you’ve been going through a rough time. 🙁 But lots of people have been through what you’ve been through and have gotten through it without suicide. Please find someone to talk to and let them know how you’re feeling. It doesn’t have to be this way.
Drop me a line if you want to talk. carin@uoguelph.ca or your semaphore on AIM.
the question is, even if you dont have a job, do you have the minimums to survive ? I mean food and selther ? In your case, I think you should park your idea away (pun intended) for a while, because not having a job is not an immediate cause for suicide. I dont know about your cv or where you are but I have been doing experiments with cvs and the results are surprising. I have had one recruiter reject my cv, so I changed a bit the message and resent it again. He did not remember the first one at all as he deleted them one after another and he received more than 150. When I sent the second one he rang me the day after and said he was impressed and it was the best he had seen in years. Of course, I did not tell him, “it is the same one you rejected last week”. Regardless of your education, even for the lowest post I have seen amazing things. I have seen a guy having worked at Tesco supermarket as a shop floor assistant. I would have not written more than one line for that but he went with all this bullshit which is made of air, but it does seduce the minds of the recruiters or employers as they sense an enthusiastic person with great attitude.
“delivered outstanding customer service by providing great and unforgettable buying experiences, showing and guiding customers to the articles they needed it and contacted via intercom if something was not found” “was responsible for handing the keys to the deputy manager prior to the end of my shift, ensuring everything was alright” He also did a part time job as a waiter and went “Served customers, making sure every customer was completely satisfied in a timely manner.
Excelled in a fast paced serving environment keeping patrons happy with cold beverages and incredible food
Processed several orders at a time, bringing their food and drink promptly with a friendly and warm demeanor while paying close attention to detail and accuracy
Ensured clients are happy no matter the cost, recognizing that return customers are essential to maximizing overall revenue goals.
So that is the point. They dont like extremely qualifed people who can do lots of things like me, because that scares them, they are afraid they are going to come up as stupid sooner or later in front of the other coworkers with regards to you.
Once I took up a job in a pharmacy in Ireland. On the second day I saw a coworker bent down on a 10 cms pile of sheets which looked like the telephone book. She was checking that for each medicine they had sold, they had been paid the right amount by the government. So she was comparing what they had sent to the government with the report that the government had sent back to them. She was dedicating 15 days a month 4 hours a day every month for that and had done it for years.
When I saw that, I could not believe that waste of time. So I told her, yes I am a pharmacist but I am also a developer, I can write a script in Perl that will compare all texts for differences and will point them out absolutely error free in less than 5 seconds, instead of your expensive error prone efforts of 15 days every month 4 hours a day.
As a sign of thanks, the employer fired me, because I had made her come up as a stupid and incompetent when everybody saw that they had been wasting years doing that. Yes, I speak 6 or 7 languages, hold two degrees, and an MBA, etc, but I have been unemployed basically all my life and this is because they dont like people like me, besides now in my 40s etc. They like someone “manageable, enthusiastic and with a consistent trend in his/her career. That is all they want.
So, specially if you are in an Anglosaxon country, your cv is more a question of attitude than content.
best regards
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