Today was the day of days for me. I woke up this morning ready to end my life.
I had gotten the exit kit and everything.
Only to have one missing piece for the damn thing to work.
What happens? I end up locking my keys in the car.
So I had to take two buses, and walk all the way home to find that my copy of my car key went missing.
I had to go to a thrift shop, buy an article of clothing that still had the old-fashioned metal hangers and go all the way back to my car.
During this time, I started to ponder not only why this was really happening, but why it really was that I wanted to end my life..
This was an eery coincidence that this happened.
I now have a big container of helium that I don’t have any use for now…
I’m still here…
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Fill up some balloons!
I’m happy for you. Well, not for all the trouble you went through… but for changing your mind. Sometimes, the strangest things happen… I think for a reason.
I hope you continue finding reasons to live.
If you have money to buy a tank of helium, take buses, and randomly buy clothing of thrift stores (and own a car, may I add), you probably have enough money to make yourself happier and a little less depressed, even if temporarily.
I sent you an e-mail hazelblue….Cheers!