Can I die? Do I have to keep living in this darkened hell we call earth? Everywhere there is suffering? They suffer unwillingly. I willingly want to suffer. I want to die. I want to be in pain. It’d be another reason to take the pills I long to take bu to no avail. this pisses me offf. I don’t understand why I have to sit here and put up with everyones bullshit, I pretend to be someone I sure the hell am not. I’m not a happy fun person. I’m an antisocial lette. (If you don’t know what that is…look it up) I hate everyday i have to live. i don’t like putting on a fake smile so people will think I’m happy. Pretending to be a nice responsible respectful young lady. But I’m not. I’m a *****. I’m not nice. I don’t like to be around people. I hate going to school. I just want it all to end so I don’t have to look back and I don’t have to feel any regret.
Please just let me be. …….so I can die…. never look back ……never deal with stupid drama again………. being stabbed in the back by those i trusted……….i give up completely………..
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well i wouldnt’d mind if you did…mind you most people won’t talk you out of it because they care for you but because they don’t want to be confronted with death and the fact that someone would willingly choose death over life and that life might afterall not be so purposeful.
so yea, go ahead and do it if that’s what your heart desires…
Faking smiles and pretending to be a lovely person isn’t a good idea. If you don’f feel like being friendly, than just don’t. You say you’re not a nice person. I’m sure you can be nice; maybe you’re just not…compatible…with the people surrounding you. I know how it feels to have all the bullshit of others directed towards you. But the problem with people is: they’re everywhere! So there’s no reason to be nice to them if they annoy you. Vent your anger on those who deserve it, not on yourself.
But why do you want to suffer? If you decide to take your life, you should at least have the right to enjoy it.
is that seriously what you believe? Hell just wants to add you to it’s collection of the decieved. you aren’t to one to call yourself a *****. cuz if you were you wouldn’t be as incredibly beautiful as you are. I can tell by what you have composed and your diction that are not some stupid little *****, you don’t have to believe everything that everyone tells you. you’re a genius, you can tell what’s true. lies can’t get passed you
Please don’t do this. Your may have been stabbed in the back, but that doesn’t always have to happen. You can find good friends and really enjoy life.