I know that there are people that have it a loss worse than I do. Believe me- I’ve been told many times. But I’ve lost most of my vision in the last 4 months and it’s eating me alive. I can’t drive anymore, I keep tripping and knocking stuff over. It’s getting harder and harder to come up with a reason to NOT do it. I know that ending myself would destroy my wife and kids, but so would living with a miserable old blind guy. I’m depressed all the time. I’ve always surrounded myself with beautiful paintings and artwork, but now I can barely see them. I’m so sad. And I don’t expect any help here. I thought that maybe if I wrote about it, I would feel better. But nope – nothing. Jeez.
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I’ve heard a few times that loosing one’s sight can cause an increase in the other senses to compensate. Why not try surrounding yourself in other forms of creativity – like music – if you are no longer able to see the paintings and artwork? There is plenty of non-visual artwork too – sculptures, etc. that you can actually gain a whole new appreciation for because you are experiencing them in a totally new way.
I can’t imagine how difficult loosing one’s sight must be cos I’ve never experienced it. But people can and do live with it. Depression is a fairly common first response. Try to seek out others who have been through the same thing and ask how they coped at first. It does get easier.
Your wife and kids need you and they will most likely support you through this more than you realize. You don’t have to be miserable, they will love you regardless and I’m sure they would want you to stick around.
I remember when my eye sight went to the dogs and I couldn’t drive any more too…I feel for ya. My vision is like a dark hazy fog…I bump into walls, and experience vertigo all the time. It is brutal…talk to your wife about how you feel…be open and honest….
I believe in miracles too, pathtofaith.com – Dr Nemeh is his name and he has been a conduit for many miraculous healings For what it’s worth I’ll put that out there for you. Be well and take care. Cheers!
Oh gosh what you said makes me sad, because I grew up without a dad. What I would have given to have a dad who loved me and me him, even if he was blind. I wish you the best.