That’s what I need. I’ve tried to be positive openly so many times only to find that anyone i open myself up to will take advantage and abuse my goodness, well ok that’s the nature of the biological mind – predatory. I don’t blaim anyone.
The problem was that I resolved to hating them all as a way of defense and to escape their lures but it doesn’t really work well and is more like a boomerang really. Hate returns in the form of dread, it seems. Even though it doesn’t affect the anxiety, depression and emptiness attacks, i atleast don’t have to deal with this backlash that seems to feel even worse.
Need a clear conscience to feel centered within myself. When I feel centered I don’t feel cut-off from myself.