Dear Diary

Second day writing my diary here.
I’m pretending no one can read it, but comments are nice. Good to have a diary I can really talk to, lol.

Today was bad. My boyfriend completely ignored me all day, even though I texted him last night and told him I couldn’t sleep because I was having a bad day. No response then, he was probably asleep. But I didn’t get any response the day after (today). He lives btw with some friends of mine, and we all gathered there today to watch a show that started airing tonight. When he came home from school he sat down in the couch with me, but not close to me. He didn’t say a word. Exept for “hello” when he came in the door, but that was to all of us. For two whole hours we sat together without touching, speaking or anything. That’s not normal for us, we are so cute and cuddly together. I don’t know what happend today. So when the show was over, I left. He asked me “are you going home?” I said “yes”, blank, cold and took my shoes and jacket on and left. I texted him, told him I was angry for his behaviour today, got no response..

So thank you my wonderful boyfriend, for giving me another night awake writing the rest of my suicide-letters, thinking about sending them out and ending it all.

Good night, dear diary.