Doctors are worthless

hello my name is Al. i’m a 26 year old male  just here to share my experience with the medical system. Its a complicated story so ill start at the beginning. when i was 15 i started having abdominal cramps. the pain was so horrible i would miss school or be late everyday. that’s when i started seeing the first of a line of doctors. they tested me and tested me and threw pill after pill at me. i tried eating only chicken and rice. i’ve done all the diets that are good  for your digestive systems.  still they couldn’t figure out what was causing my pain. they decided then that it must be psychosomatic (in my head). i was so frustrated at this point i said to myself “fuck these medical doctors then ill just deal with it”. but eventually i broke down into a very deep depression when i was about 21. i didnt want to live with all this pain. my family checked me into a inpatient mental hospital. what i saw there scars me till this day. i saw the face of death on the other patients and it scared me to the core. ill never forget there faces they are burned into my mind. i see them even now as i close my eyes. i left there with antidepressants and anti anxiety pills but still in such horrible abdominal pain with still no diagnosis. this is when i went threw the 2nd round of doctors and the 2nd round of very uncomfortable tests. again they found no cause for my pain and via a fucken cell phone voice mail said i had stress induced I.B.S and they could do nothing for me and to basically eat better. so now im 26 and i cant keep a job for more than a couple months. i spend every other day curled up in a ball on the floor wanting the pain to end. i don’t want to kill myself but i know if this goes on like it is ill be forced to do it. I know harbor a deep sometimes irrational hatred for doctors but i need to see these fucks cause i have to do something about this pain or its gonna kill me. i feel so trapped.