I lost a loved one today.we had a lot of ups and downs,
but I always seemedÂ optimisticÂ on the potential of us getting it together one day.
I love her.. and I’ll never realize when to letÂ you go. Â I’ve struggled with the highest form of anxiety for years now
and its become unbearable. Panic attacks and heartÂ palpitationsÂ have altered my life for the worse.
I’ve just been always scared to die due to religious beliefs and felt if under the influence it’d be way easier.
Drugs make my symptoms of depressions worse so I avoided it. Â I depended on her.. she kept me going when I didn’t
have reasons to continue. Now that this person is gone, I can only hope she will find happiness because she deserves it.
I pray nothing causes her to end her life because she feels worse about it than me, and that is my fear.
If your reading this.. I love you so much and I’m sorry I couldn’t be the person to bring you true happiness.
IÂ appreciateÂ you giving me every ounce ofÂ forgivenessÂ in you to let me keep trying. I miss you and I love you.
*Selena – Dreaming of you*
You became my quickest best friend in a very short period of time. My second fear is your well being.
I hope and pray for a miracle for something to change your life around. I saw how you and I were on the same boat
right from the first messages we shared together. We’ve shared a lot of laughs and arguements through texts that I can
only smile about now. Â I wish you the best and hope you the best. I love you as well.
Crying non stop is something I’ve grown accustom to now but in writing this I’ve found peace and comfort and have
actually stopped crying. The timing of this is somewhat perfect since I just activated my credit card that IÂ receivedÂ a
couple days agoÂ in which I may spend 500 dollars adding that to my savings account.Â I’ll be using that to finally escape
from all of this. Â So for everyone out there struggling with something, anything, I will pray for you. For the
parentsÂ contemplating suicide don’t do it, YourÂ children need you. I love you Leo, Rich and Ed
All I can ask for is forgiveness from my loved ones and God.