hi im edward im 24 and thing have been realy bad since i was 14 ive been trying to think of the best way to kill my self i dont want it to be a fast death i want to feal every thing and as much pain as u can think of plezz help!
you could starve your self. that would take a long time and its terribley painfull for about a month. but y would you. if you want pain just go to a s&m club and get some hot chick to whip u? 🙂
hi edward. I have read these posts & don’t really know what to say. It sounds made-up, but I DO understand. Three hours ago I was in a store, looking at the nylon ropes, & trying to figure out if I had the guts to buy the rope. Something made me put it back on the shelf. I have thought of suicide for many years. I am alone, estranged from my family, & most of my “friends” don’t take my calls. I am homeless and sad. I am an alcoholic and have no job. I have made a couple of half-*ss attempts in the past; but I passed out before I could slash my wrists. I cry just about every day. I don’t own a gun, but wouldn’t use it even if I did(i know a guy who put a shotgun to his temple. He survived & is fine. He’s just blind). I wish I knew what to say, but as we all know; sometimes there are no “right” words. I am trying to hang on day by day. Will you do the same,, and talk here with me on this site? I have cried wolf so many times, most people don’t take my “threats of doing it seriously”. I know how sad and cruel and cold this world is. But I like to hope there is a reason for you all being here.. Please know that I have come as close to doing it as one can; and then was “interrupted” by a phone call. I believe it wasn’t my time. Please do respond back. I am always here for a friend who understands pain like I do.
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if any one has any ideas i want it to be something big and something bo one has done or would ever think of doing
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Why do you want pain?
you could starve your self. that would take a long time and its terribley painfull for about a month. but y would you. if you want pain just go to a s&m club and get some hot chick to whip u? 🙂
hi edward. I have read these posts & don’t really know what to say. It sounds made-up, but I DO understand. Three hours ago I was in a store, looking at the nylon ropes, & trying to figure out if I had the guts to buy the rope. Something made me put it back on the shelf. I have thought of suicide for many years. I am alone, estranged from my family, & most of my “friends” don’t take my calls. I am homeless and sad. I am an alcoholic and have no job. I have made a couple of half-*ss attempts in the past; but I passed out before I could slash my wrists. I cry just about every day. I don’t own a gun, but wouldn’t use it even if I did(i know a guy who put a shotgun to his temple. He survived & is fine. He’s just blind). I wish I knew what to say, but as we all know; sometimes there are no “right” words. I am trying to hang on day by day. Will you do the same,, and talk here with me on this site? I have cried wolf so many times, most people don’t take my “threats of doing it seriously”. I know how sad and cruel and cold this world is. But I like to hope there is a reason for you all being here.. Please know that I have come as close to doing it as one can; and then was “interrupted” by a phone call. I believe it wasn’t my time. Please do respond back. I am always here for a friend who understands pain like I do.
slowly drill holes in your body untill u bleed out…………………. ur fucked
starving is good, or exposure, that is finding a cold place and being outside in a cardboard box. I guess Alaska.
Sounds like you’re going through an awful time. Can we talk? I’d love just to listen. carin@uoguelph.ca or yoursemaphore on AIM