Thank-you for everyone who tried to help, it really meant something to me knowing that people actually cared about me.
Sorry to everyone who emailed me in the last few days that I never replied to.
Got a bottle of  Asian vodka mixed with meth and a few grams of amphetamines, wish me luck.
If it fails, i’ll create a new post letting everyone know not to try it.
If I succeed, I wish you all happiness in this life or the next and I hope you all find inner peace.
God saw you getting tired, when a cure was not to be.
So he wrapped his arms around you and whispered ‘come to me’.
You didn’t deserve what you went through, so he gave you rest.
God’s garden must be beautiful, he only takes the best.
And when I saw you sleeping, so peaceful and free from pain.
I could not wish you back there, to suffer that again.
“Death isn’t extinguishing the light; it is putting out the lamp because dawn has come.”
BDF
June 27th 1995- March 27th 2011
11 comments
Please don’t do this. Please call 9-1-1. We care about you and don’t want to see you die.
wow that was beautiful,
i wish you all the best and a most safe journey!!! See you in a better place soon…
I never met you but i am so sad knowing you had to suffer so much emotional pain to want to do this
I dont know you but u just mad me sad:(
I hope you’ve changed your mind, if not i hope it was a easy passing.
I was quite saddened to read this, your last email to me said you were doing ok but i understand that. I tell everyone who asks me i’m ok when really i’m not.
You probably wont read this but your poem was beautiful.
Have a nice suicide!
do not do this, the chance of falure is big and when you’re alive after that, you’ll have great brain damage which is not fixable. please don’t do this to yourself, you don’t deserve it, you can have another new life but not like this!hope you’ll listen…
I hope you would be able to experience happiness..
Please..please be all right. I don’t know you, but this made me cry…
Goodbye to you too. I hope you finally find happiness. I love you. See you on the other side.
To those bastards who are celebrating her suicide, you are the sickest of all evils.