I am done

Don’t know what to do where to turn or how to do it. I guess i am in crisis??.. all i want is for this isolation and physcal and mental pain to end or subside. Cannot think or for that matter function….I know I am going crazy (so this is what it feels like). Honestly, truely without a doubt; dying looks and feels to me like relief mercy. They say get help, call someone, go to the ER, call your doctor, crap if it were really that easy, they all give the impression as i am wasting their time that i have the right idea anyway. The world is so distorted and misshappen in what is left of my lucidity am i even writing this??? Am i awake now? or am i just wishing again? in help that does not come again? hoping for help.