I think I’ve screwed up one too many times. My record will be ruined, all my future aspirations are thrown away. I’m too impulsive I can’t make the right decisions. I’m only 18 and i’ve fucked up too many times, I can’t live the rest of my life like this. There’s no fixing what I’ve done. My parents will never look at me the same again. I feel like i’m not meant to be here, ive hardly contributed anything to the world and I don’t know what i’m doing here. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, all I do is think about my purpose and my future. I see nothing.