i hate my life

I dunno what else to do with this stupid thing called life anymore, today was just another terrible day. i woke up feeling terrible, i made my best and tried to calm myself down and got out of bed, i was still feeling terrible, i didn’t manage to make any tasks not even my h-w, i lied to my mum w7hen she asked “are u ok” , i lied again when she said “are u still talking with your friends”, i cut myself cause i can’t deal with my stupid pain anymore which is both mental and physical at the same time [beccause of what i mentioned in my latest post here at SP (suicide project)]                   http://suicideproject.org/2011/02/im-sooooooo-sick/       , now i feel like crying myself to sleep cause there’s nothing left for me, every little thing in my life is completely wrong except my online friends but even when i talk with them i only make them feel worse. i’m so sick of every thing.

with depression nothing feels good at all, i can’t even study anymore, and my parents is starting to feel that there’s something wrong with me cause of my sleeping disorder, every morning i don’t find a real reason to get out of bed so i just tell myself that there’s no point and i go back to sleep and wake up at 2 pm or something and sometimes i forget to even eat or drink, everything is so messed up and i feel too lost and helpless….it’s ok if nobody bothered to comment cause it won’t change a thing 🙁