My best friend.i have a huge crush on her.she says she loves me.but just not the way I love her.I help her find the perfect guy…well i try anyway.but really I’m sad.I want everyone to reject her so I can have her.for me.all to me.is that wrong?hat else can I do?she’s not sure if she’s bi.she says she needs time.I give her time.but its killing me.
and my other friend.I love her too.she’s the best.we aren’t best friends.but I guess we are close.sad part is.she has a bf.I cry myself to sleep.iknow she’s happy.I’m happy for her.but…I want mto be happy too.
cutting does that.it makes me feel worth something.
I love three people.two girls.and a guy.they know I do.They sometimes don’t care.I feel empty without one or all of them.
The guy…my best friend since we were five.I love him the most.he says he loves me.thety all say that.but they dont.its all a lie.I can’t ve lovednever have.
I’ve been hated my whole life.I may love people.yes.but people always hate me.I’m worthless.hate wins.loves loses.thats my saying.
I hate my lofe.i want it to end.I want my sadness the hatred I want all of it to end.
Maeliin.don’t worry.my promise stays.till the trip is taken.and over.
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If they hate you then they are not worth your time. You deserve better.
I love them.icant let them go.but they are slipping away.Ie lost them.all.they don’t care.but I do.I hate getting close to peole cuz this happeneds.all the time.thats why I’m a *****.
Ok, conventional wisdom would have it that we need to love ourselves first and once we love ourselves, once we have a strong centre, we become less dependent on the validation of others. I hate conventional wisdom.
Maybe you need to make people get close to you.
I can never love me. I may accept me.but never love.im unloveable!
I do understand where you are coming from; personally when I fall in love I will heaven and earth to get them, the loved one, to fall for someone else. Weird … But I’ve always been like that …. Doubtless worried about being made vulnerable. I doubt that you are hated.
I can’t.I get hurt or they will.it ends the same.I lose someone.always.I never got thisclose to three people before.now at the same time….they are gone.it torture!
Guess what.my best friend.tge girl.made a fucking account.now I can’t vent.I can’t do shut without her seeing.fuck my life!
Whoever came up with the expression, that it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all, should be shot. Smiling are you insane ? Let people get close …. Ahhhhhhhh …. I think this maybe one of my issues
I can’t let anyone get close.I just yelked ather.to vdelete her account.this is my vent site.my little get away.from my shitty life.
Get a gun and kill me!!!!!!! Anyone!everyone!
I loveher.but this is my venting spot.she xant take it!!!!!!!!!!
Millie, it’s tough but in the end people don’t always act as we would have them …. How old are you by the way ? I know pain is pain but
15.
I remeber when i was 15…i was bullied so bad i was a nihilist, and i lost hope in the world.
Life was meaningless.
I know mine is.I have nothing.no one
Hey cracked…funny enough you crack me up…lol. From what I’ve seen in successful relationships is the law of attraction rules. We want the perfect person that suits us without us doing any real inner work in order to attract him or her into our lives. The person we end up being with is a reflection of us. Just how it works for the most part…I’m not a great fan of how that works but, I’ve seen that pattern so much it’s hard to deny. Any time I “fell” for someone, boy I got hurt cause then they had power over my happiness and it was a co-dependent relationship- This could sound like bunk, but when you are one within yourself and the person u r with is one within themselves…the two of you are at 1 and in sync…pretty fulfilling when it happens that way. Relationships…always a challenge though…Cheers.