I hate myself. I hate every little aspect of me. I’m tired of pretending everything is okay. I’m tired of putting on that fake smile. What the hell is wrong with me? I don’t even know who I am. I look in the mirror and see a stranger.
I don’t want to try anymore. I don’t want to try and get good grades. I don’t want to try to loose weight. I don’t want to try to make myself not so hideous. I just want to lay in my bed and never leave.
What do I do? Do I keep on living this life I hate? Do I keep on pretending? Or do I stop pretending and just end it now. That option seems the best.
I know I’m not going to be able to do it though. I couldn’t do that to my family… and I don’t know what would happen to me after death.
I’m going to cut tonight, I haven’t done it in at least a month, so I’m in desperate need.
I wish I could just take a break. a long break from life, I just need to breathe again.
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I feel the exact same way. How do I go on? All i want to do is be able to breath.
Same here. I just want to disappear for a little while, just to get a look over my life. Because I feel like i am disappearing, what am i now?. This life I am living is suffecating me. It is leaving me emotionless.
That’s exactly how I feel. I try to take deep breaths to calm myself down, but that just makes me feel like I’m suffocating.
Why does it all have to be so hard.
Exactly. Life just sucks. period. And it’s always going too. No matter how happy you are, it’s just going to suck again. Why live like that? I just want to leave this planet, and go to a new one, wheres there’s no suffering and no sorrow, just peace.
They tell me its the chemicals in my brain. But honestly, I thinks it’s because we’re the only one’s with our eyes and minds wide open; open enough to see the evils of the world. We are the one’s who choose to be painfully aware, instead of blissfully ignorant
Exactly, couldn’t agree more. All life is truly is, is sadness. No one in my opinion is happy, I don’t even believe happiness exists. People just think there happy, but deep down, there not. Everywhere I look is pain, I find pain in the simplest things. Nothing matters anymore, and it really never did matter, I was just oblivious to realize it didn’t.
That´s true. We are the one´s that see the real world maybe, but others don´t want to know anything about it. And make us feel like we are nothing.
its because we are the minority and therefore “not normal” so they call our thoughts a disease and tell us that we are sick
yeah
but sometimes it gets so bad that I wish I didn’t really see and understand the world. I too wish to be blissfully ignorant, sometimes…but the feeling always passes
Just know that you can live with no pretension, without necessarily have to end it now.
There are actually plenty of people/individuals who’ve done this along human’s history, from famous figures even down to ordinary people.
What’s needed is one factor: courage.
this earthly life might be filled with pains & sufferings, ‘cuz we all know it’s not a perfect life or heaven,
but sometimes you have to wonder what makes people like Ernest Hemingway finally come to a conclusion that “Life is worth living”?..
Things change, people change, situations change.
Nothing is ever stay constant.
But real, true changes always comes from within first, then the outside stuff will follow that change.
When everything seems to perfect, it starts to feel like it´s unreal. Everything just too perfect. Life is not perfect, it is messy and is hurts a ot sometimes. But when it doesn´t it isn´t life. Just a dream.
Theres no such thing as happiness. It just covers the sadness, but it wont always cover it because no matter how hard you try sadness always comes back. When you’re happy it’s just a false reality.
If you’re in pain, do your best to learn from it…that’s a big reason for all of us being here. There’s no prize, just a universal test for many of us.
Some make it through, some don’t….this world is something of an experiment that for one reason or another agreed to, it is anyone’s choice stop should they wish. There is no judgment, don’t judge yourselves…just do it…do your best and think well of yourself along the way, as best you can….Cheers!