its so easy to vent your feeling to a stranger, someone who wont judge you, or at least you hope he wont. ive made so many mistakes and i keep repeating one because i think that maybe just maybe this time it will be different and that it will make me feel valuable instead of cheaper, but it doesnt. for the moment it doesnt feel wrong but afterwards my brain takes over and i begin to think and i see my error and i want to take it back but i cant so then i just want to stop myself from doing it again not just that, but any mistake. after it i feel so alone, and it just makes me wish harder that i had someone, not to be in a relationship or naything like that just someone that would help me cry but i dont and i just dont want to cry anymore.i want to be in a place where i can sleep and never wake up. i want to find home.