Idek…

so i’ve officially lost it! I havnt slept in 4 days no literally 4 days wide open eyes no dreams. It’s nuts i need pills lots of ’em! I can’t help but want to take drugs for some reason… i don’t know. I want them. yesterday when i was with my boyfriend he had asked me to go to a website called drugs.com it tells you the side effects and diefferent info about a perscription pill that you could’ve recieved from your doctor…. well anyway he had me look up some drug that was for like anti-pyshotic actions or something and that moment when i seen the pills in front of me (he had them) i wanted them extremely bad! But he said he would punch me if i took any lol silly boys… don’t you know girls get whatever they really crave for…. (i lied) becuz i didnt get the pills. I dont get anything anymore but that’s about to change…