So far it seems to be the only thing I can think to say to him sometimes. He’s the nicest guy I know. That’s why I love him. He may be stance sometimes but that’s why I like him, he’s different and tries to help. He knows next to nothing why I cut or why I’m so sad. But he still shows he cares enough for it to really hurt when he starts to talk about the girl he’s in live with. I’m jelous of her, uet Ive never met her. How she could stand to dump him and make him sad I can’t understand. He just wants to everyone to be happy and okay in krder for gim to be happy. But now i feel im just another obsticle for him. Another annoying thing in the way of his path to being happy. He gets mad at me when i slip up and he realizes that i cut or am still sad. I want him to be happy, but I also want to die. The pain of this kills me.
I can’t find the energy to even write well today.