i started smoking again bad idea.. but it did calm me down you have no idea what i’ve been through the last three days… oh and thanks to those who gave me there emails that’s real sweet. Makes me feel good. something i havnt felt in awhile…i think im gonna try some hard core drugs, im nervous but i’ve seen people do it and it helps them cope right? well, anyone try anything really illegal? crystal meth? heroin? crack? coke? i just want to know before i ruin my life… but for the last three days i’ve been putting on a show for these people!! i don’t go to school as much as i used to or am supposed to…
guess that’s fate. some people were meant to live this way…, you know that movie law abiding citizen? well the guy in there said you can’t fight fate….
guess i supposed to be here, bcuz for sum reason i still am.
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Drugs wi.ll just add to your issues. In my twenties I tried coke, it felt good for a while but in the end made me paranoid. Now in my forties I look at those who continued to take the stuff – none of them are happy, in fact, they struggle with their addiction and those with underlying mental issues have only made those issues worse. Strength does not come from drugs, confidence is not the product of chemical fixes. In the end those who arevhappy, satisfied and strong are those who have managed to confront their issues. I’ve seen so many turn their lives around.
Butler was a class act in LAC. Though i’d argue that we decide our fate. Those men who had to face vengeance made choices each of which led to the inevitable. We are all aware of karma and of the ineluctable orbit of actions. They knew at some level that what they did would haunt them but they wanted their pleasure in the here and now.
This is the attitude of most drug users (neat little segue heh 😉 ) addicts want to retreat into the confines of a high in order to escape. But universally natures laws dictate that the piper always exacts payment. Sniff a line of coke and you’ll white knuckle it down the comedown. Profound despair as complete as the relief you seek.
I would suggest one time use or rotating drugs, but there is always the comedown the return to form in which you will be in a state of mind more intensely dysphoric than before you began using.
Lastly not all drugs are euphoric for everyone. Most people who try heroin actually dont have that hailed rush. For many its a very discomfiting dissociative unpleasurable experience. Same with any other drug especially coke meth et al.
What country are you from may I ask?