I have given myself reasons to stay, reasons to go, reasons to wait, reasons to jump headfirst, but I can’t decide, I can’t pick the direction, I’m so uncertain.
I’m so lonely. I wish I had guidance. I’ve been attempting to seek help, but I don’t meet with my counselor often enough for it to make a difference. I need a friend on the weekends, someone who knows how to distract me and lift me up. That’s all I need, to be honest…someone to take this away…
Yesterday my calculus teacher told me that he’s been worried about me. This confused me a bit, because I don’t think I’ve been much different than I’ve always been these last few years. I’m thankful that he cares, but I want to know what he noticed that convinced him something was wrong. Maybe something is wrong with my facade…I don’t know. But I can’t let myself confide in him. I already know that he has his own shit to deal with, and I refuse to make it worse for him. He’s too good of a person.
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go speak to a youth minister or pastor!! i go to group every week and im looking for more help too!! i was told today to turn to the LORD so i’m gonna try that!! maybe it will help you too!!
If you need someone to talk to, I can give you my email so we can talk whenever you need it.
Just reply back if you’re interested.
If you want to talk, i’m here 🙂 i’ll be more than willing to be your friend for whenever you need
What’s wrong?
I’m just so lonely. My counselor compared my condition to solitary confinement–after talking a little more, he said “Gosh, now that I think about it, I know kids who have been to jail who had more freedom than you…”
My mom’s strict–she used to hit us, but she hasn’t lately because I frighten her when I get angry, especially after she’s hit one of my siblings. When I was younger she would always tell me I couldn’t go places, but now, even though I can drive, I still don’t get out much. It used to be her that isolated me, but lately I’ve just been isolating myself.
The thing is that I don’t know how to fix this…friends don’t just come out of nowhere. And I’m grateful for the help you guys have offered, but I guess I feel like I need someone physically with me. It’s not just emotional loneliness anymore–it’s physical, too.
Well, if it makes ya feel any better I’m on the same boat.. Literally! But more severe I guarantee *the solitary confinement part*. I can’t talk much about it but I feel ya / :
Where you from longtimegone how old are you? Do you have any friends?