I’m currently in bed laying down with a long scarf wrapped around my kneck in the most tightest way so I can cut off blood circulation to my brain and be dead and fall asleep and hopefully not wake up from this ever. The method is called the ‘choking game’ and is legit research it if you want y’all. It’s a little discomforting but hey it’s obvious none of us has a way of ending it so this the next best thing for me. I already feel like I’m losing it a little cause my face is really red and their is veins showing in my forehead. Anyways what else am I to do… Cause this has caused deaths and that’s what I want at this point.