I’m just existing, I perform the basic human necessaties, I have extreme anxiety especially at night knowing that I have to get up and go to work in the morning It’s hard for me to fall asleep and as soon as my alarm goes off my mind immediatly ‘shuts down’ I don’t want to get out of bed and face the day, face reality, anxiety takes it hold over me, its the whole process of another day, over and over again, I avoid ppl at work, I force myself to smile, only if they smile first…the stupid little things drive me crazy. I escape through my dreams. Its hard to concentrate even though I try to read, I just hate tv now, its all trash, food doesnt have any taste anymore. On and on my existance goes. Unless I end it.