Health class was terrible today! I had to sit and listen to my teacher talk about suicide for 47 minutes. It took all I had not to burst into tears. I think I might be a little bit bipolar. I can go from being happy and feeling nice one minute and the next be very depressed and suicidal for no reason at all. Or be very optimistic and then be pessimistic. I can go from being confident about myself to really hating myself, mostly I hate myself though. i’ve thought about talking to this oneÂ teacher i really like because he’s bipolar but im fairly certain he would have to report me and then my rents would know.Â I want to go back into therapy but the person I saw before was not cheap. Plus if it is my brain chemistry is bad then Iâ€™ll need medication. And I don’t think my family could afford that. We already have to pay for a lot of prescriptions (shity health care) and my dad recently went to the er for a broken wrist, that cost 15,000 and that is just for the er visit!! My dad isn’t able to drive so therefore my mother would do the driving and I know she already has to too much on her plate without worrying about me cutting or killing myself. i think that’s all.