General last post by 20 excuses 3/15/2011 written by 20 excuses 3/15/2011 Tomorrow’s the big day, and before anyone says anything, I want this. Just saying goodbye 41 comments 0 Email Related posts stuck in the shadows 10/18/2021 10/18/2021 Why Me? 10/18/2021 Goodguy sends love part2 10/18/2021 Heavy 10/18/2021 Satisfactory is good enough 10/18/2021 Numb to the Core 10/18/2021 Suicidal 10/18/2021 plaything 10/17/2021 When little to nothing brings you joy 10/16/2021 41 comments sigh 3/15/2011 - 11:18 pm I hope you find true happiness and peace no matter what you end up doing, goodbye. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/15/2011 - 11:29 pm thank you sigh, I hope you find the same. God knows everyone deserves it Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/15/2011 - 11:47 pm Can i ask how? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/15/2011 - 11:52 pm certainly. Driving to a remote area (won’t disclose location) with 10 helium tanks and a 12 gauge shotgun. Parking, turning on helium tanks, and going to pull the trigger. If the headshot doesn’t kill me, the helium will. Log in to Reply happypill 3/16/2011 - 12:07 am hope to hear from you again. Even tho I don’t know u. If not than goodbye amigo Log in to Reply will692 3/16/2011 - 12:08 am Please don’t do this. Life can get better. We are here for you Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:09 am Will i know you mean well but you always say the same thing and you cant save everyone Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:11 am goodbye, “Death may be the greatest of all human blessings.” ~Socrates Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:12 am This will probably sound horrible but im jealous i wish i could join you 🙁 Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:12 am I know life CAN get better, it’s just the probability of it getting better in time for the damage to be obsolete is rediculously low. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:13 am It doesn’t sound horrible, at least, not to me. But I’m not exactly healthy in mind or body Log in to Reply will692 3/16/2011 - 12:18 am The probability of you getting better doesn’t mean you won’t. You should try to get better for a while longer. Call a hotline, talk to a psychiatrist, talk to friends or family or talk to us. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:20 am I’ve done those. I understand people care and I understand life is about living. however, I do not care and I don’t enjoy life. For obvious reasons I have few who really care, and most will get over my death in a few weeks. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:20 am Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. ~Norman Cousins Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:24 am I wish i had a gun. Are you scared to pull the trigger? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:26 am honestly, not at all. I am almost obsessed with it. I think about it, sometimes practice. Thinking about suicide is when there’s fear, and when there’s hope. it’s when the thinking is over and acceptance comes that you’re lost Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:29 am Yeah i get ya Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:31 am Idk, the only thing I fear at this point in time is if I’m wrong and there is an afterlife. I’m dying to die, not to have to live all over again and this time for forever Log in to Reply will692 3/16/2011 - 12:31 am I don’t think the people who care about you will get over it in a few weeks. This will be with them their entire lives. you can get to enjoy life again. I know it’s hard, but it can happen. Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:33 am Yeah i think about what happens after alot too. Idk what to think everyone says something different. Imagine after all you did just to get outta here to end up in a worse place omg that’d suck you’d be screwed for eternity! Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:34 am Trust me, I know it can happen too. at this point, I’m not willing or able to put in the effort or waste years of my life trying to make something of myself. My path was one of the fuck up, and trust me, the people who care about me will forget. Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:35 am Will your always on here offering support which yeah is nice but im curious whats your story? Most of us have told ours i dont think i’ve ever heard anything about you? Log in to Reply Ningyou 3/16/2011 - 12:35 am Good luck with your plan. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:35 am There was a movie I watched, an Indie, called “Wristcutters, a love story” and being a cutter myself I was curious. I watched it, and I have to say, for being a movie with a happy ending, it was very good. and it gave thought into your statement crying on the inside Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:36 am thank you ningyou. Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:38 am Oh okay i havent heard of that movie Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:39 am like I said, an Indie, but basically, there was a seperate life for suicides. I hate movies with happy endings. (why I loved blue valentine (killed my relationship though)) but it was very thought provoking and had a nice little message Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:40 am Did you get pure helium? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:42 am yes, it took me a good month and a half to get it all (went to different sources and always spent it in cash, don’t want to leave an easy trail) Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 12:49 am Most people use the party helium for balloons and thats why it sometimes fail i’ve heard that pure helium is hard to get your hands on. How’d you get a gun let me guess you live in the u.s? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 12:51 am Yes I do, lol. Good ol US of A. Not only that, but living where I do can give one some easy access to a lot of things. I was thinking about an Uzi submachine gun, but it was too much. And I read about that too, why I went for the pure helium. party stuff can work, but I’d prefer a much higher success rate Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 1:05 am Of course lol I figured that! Its like impossible to just buy a gun here its a lengthy hard expensive thing to do Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 1:10 am I’m guessing UK? And is there no way to go through the black markets? Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 1:16 am Nope Australia pretty hard here Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 1:18 am ah, forgot about the land down under, won’t happen again. I can see that being the case. Are you trying to “go out with a bang” as well? (sorry, grim humour and all that) Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 1:21 am Lol Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/16/2011 - 1:23 am anyway, I am crashing, big day tomorrow! Goodbye, goodluck, and may you find peace and happiness on whichever road you walk. Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/16/2011 - 1:23 am Bye buddy (hug) Goodluck Log in to Reply Lexsym 3/16/2011 - 3:54 am I wish I could join too. Log in to Reply blackmoon 3/17/2011 - 12:40 am is 20 excuses dead?! Log in to Reply crying on the inside 3/17/2011 - 12:44 am Not sure, maybe? Today was his day, he said bye Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.