I just want to start with saying, English is not my native language but i’ll try my best
Well where to start I’m 24 years old I got 2 kids I got a decent job or well I had a decent job
it all started in november 2010 with me getting these wierd spontaneous toughts such as
” will people remember me ” , ” Do anyone even care if i leave this earth?” etc etc.
and pretty soon it evolved into these very fucked up patherns of thinking
like when anything went against me I just tought ” gosh it would be nice to just off my self ”
and it gave me the feeling of calm.
so obivously in the short run it was just awesome to go like ” gosh it would be nice to off my self ”
But the problem is after a while I started to need more ( of course ) So i went to the hospital
and got some meds etc. and well now 4 months later i’m still feeling like i want to die but not as often as I did.
so i’m not out of the ‘bushes’ yet but i’ve been reading allot of what you people write here and I just wanted to share and let you know the feeling can go away even if it doesnt feel like it today or tomorrow but maybe next week? ; )