I just want to start with saying, English is not my native language but i’ll try my best
Well where to start I’m 24 years old I got 2 kids I got a decent job or well I had a decent job
it all started in november 2010 with me getting these wierd spontaneous toughts such as
” will people remember me ” , ” Do anyone even care if i leave this earth?” etc etc.
and pretty soon it evolved into these very fucked up patherns of thinking
like when anything went against me I just tought ” gosh it would be nice to just off my self ”
and it gave me the feeling of calm.
so obivously in the short run it was just awesome to go like ” gosh it would be nice to off my self ”
But the problem is after a while I started to need more ( of course ) So i went to the hospital
and got some meds etc. and well now 4 months later i’m still feeling like i want to die but not as often as I did.
so i’m not out of the ‘bushes’ yet but i’ve been reading allot of what you people write here and I just wanted to share and let you know the feeling can go away even if it doesnt feel like it today or tomorrow but maybe next week? ; )
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Im glad your feeling a little better and yeah meds do help. Oh and that made me laugh when you write not out of the “bushes” yet, just sounds funny.
The meaning of life can be found in Death, becuase then you see life for what it is.
heh I do get the “bushes” but biscuit; life we know what it is for good and bad.
death however will result in quitting existance I mean cmon we all want to believe
that there is something after this but moast likley there isnt.