General my day by 20 excuses 3/9/2011 written by 20 excuses 3/9/2011 got fired for beating up a customer. facing assault charges too. Whoopie! 26 comments 0 Email Related posts hollow 10/25/2021 :B P.R.I.D.E 10/25/2021 Biased assholes 10/24/2021 10/23/2021 Protected: Why i cant be your friend… 10/23/2021 Choose to live? 10/23/2021 Reasons to Live 10/22/2021 This photo perfectly summarizes how I feel 10/22/2021 Written on a cracked screen so sorry forspelling…. 10/22/2021 10/22/2021 26 comments DysteR8 3/9/2011 - 11:34 pm how did this shit happen ? Log in to Reply otherside 3/9/2011 - 11:35 pm You beat up someone you delivered a pizza to? What happened? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/9/2011 - 11:39 pm no, actually, I used to date the “counter girl” at my work, am still quite fond of her. anywho, this guy I didn’t like the look of came up and kissed her (knew she was seeing someone else) and I snapped. unfortunately so did his jaw, ergo the assault charges. (and most likely hospital bill) Log in to Reply DysteR8 3/9/2011 - 11:41 pm And this was when ? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/9/2011 - 11:42 pm approximately 7 hours ago. just got out on bail :/ Log in to Reply DysteR8 3/9/2011 - 11:48 pm 🙁 This sucks arse man… Hope at least the punch felt good. Log in to Reply otherside 3/9/2011 - 11:49 pm Did you lose your job? Log in to Reply otherside 3/9/2011 - 11:49 pm Nevermind.. I wasn’t thinking. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/9/2011 - 11:52 pm well, I dislocated two knuckles but yes, it felt great. Of course, the pain I caused the girl I feel bad about. I really did like her and I hate hurting her, but well, I’m emotionally unstable and that was too much to an already bad day. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/9/2011 - 11:53 pm and otherside, that’s ok, we all don’t think sometimes ( my day as case in point) Log in to Reply otherside 3/10/2011 - 12:00 am I was reading something last night that made me think. I wonder if I haven’t subconsciously been commiting suicide for years now, by destroying my career and the relationships in my life. I’ve failed at suicide so many times, maybe it was something I did so that my situation would become so hopeless that I would have no other choice. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 12:04 am I’ve also wondered that myself, thus the name 20 excuses. I had 20 “excuses” to live, and as I ticked them off and disproved them, I grew closer to suicide. Now it’s almost time. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 3/10/2011 - 12:21 am I hope you will live. Sorry to hear what happened. I’m sure I would be really pissed off if the girl I was dating was kissing another guy. I’m curious why she didn’t stop him from doing so though… if she didn’t want him to I’m pretty sure she could’ve stopped it… maybe.. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 12:23 am well, we broke up about a week ago. she was tick 20. I already have a date and a method. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 3/10/2011 - 12:57 am Well.. she could’ve been seeing that guy behind your back… not to try to make things worse for you. If someone kisses you, and you don’t get mad at that person, doesn’t stop that person, but instead leave the person you’re with… that’s a sign that she was cheating on you with him… or something like that… I was with someone like that long long ago. Girls who cheat aren’t worth it… and what’s your time and method? Log in to Reply Deep abyss 3/10/2011 - 12:57 am I hope you don’t go through with it though.. and live on.. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 12:58 am I’m sure she was, honestly. As to time, it’s March 16th of this year. method, 12 gauge shotgun to the head in my car, but I’ll have 10 helium tanks running in it as well just in case. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 3/10/2011 - 1:15 am Don’t kill yourself because of her. I seem hypocritical when I say that, but she left cause she cheated, she’s not worth it. I think you should live on… and find someone better than that. That method does sound like it’ll work… but… idk.. it’ll be painful. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 1:19 am oh, it’s not her, sorry to have conveyed that point. I am not killing myself for a girl, but because of who I am, what I will be. tick 20 was the last chance at having a family, and it was the least important excuse. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 3/10/2011 - 1:20 am I see. I never heard your story. So how old are you and what happened that you wanna die too? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 1:23 am well, I have a long post somewhere in the archives. I’m 20. I want to die because my entire life I have hurt people and I continue to do so. (like today) I have no future, as I continiously destroy any chance at success that comes my way. I’m toxic, and I self destruct. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 1:23 am story in a very small nutshell. there’s more fragments in other posts to other people. just trying to keep it short 🙂 Log in to Reply Deep abyss 3/10/2011 - 1:35 am It’s ok if it’s long. You can change all that though. You don’t have to hurt people anymore (idk how you did so) but you don’t have to do that. You can just stop that. I’m sure it’s not too hard. You’re not toxic. I’m sure you can do well. If you have a goal or anything, just work towards that instead. Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 1:37 am Well, my goals have all burnt to a crisp. I hurt others emotionally, I lead people on, use them. physically, I have beaten many people, some almost to death. I also used to rob them, but I made peace with my past. no, it’s my future that is my problem, and my present Log in to Reply Deep abyss 3/10/2011 - 1:40 am Did you try finding new goals in life and working towards them? Log in to Reply 20 excuses 3/10/2011 - 1:43 am yes, see, even as I actively work towards them, I find ways to sabotage and self destruct. Eventually I just gave up. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.