it seems every time i get this feeling inside of me i hear this voice that is telling me to just end it. i dont know how to make it stop and i dont want to hurt everyone around me. it seem like i have a darkness inside me that is trying to consume me, suffocate me. ive talked to a friend but it doesnt help. and the feeling to slid the blade across me wrist againÂ gets continuealy hard to resist. my poery doesnt help anymore either, neather does drugs or alchol. the pain seems to be getting worse and i cant please it enoughh to give me a moment to escape it. i know i shouldnt inflict pain on myself but its like i dont control it anymore.