i’m new here. but not new to suicide etc. actually, we’re pretty well acquainted.
little background info (because you won’t know me, and i won’t know you, and this anonymity is giving me chills): i’m an 18 year old, manic depressive female with a few attempts under her belt, and a few trips to the crazy house.
here’s the thing; i’m a happy person. i am cheery as hell. just reading this, i bet you’re thinking, ‘what an irritatingly chipper sonuvabitch’. but that’s what’s extra sad, because i’m not really happy, am i? no sir. i’m just a big grinning mask.
i would say approximately 85% of my thoughts revolve around suicide or harm. but i’m feeling good today, which is nice.
in any event, i’m here now. and i’m a chatty little creep, so if you’re sitting at your computer right now, feeling as shit as i do, talk to me. just do it.