I am a decently skinny sized girl, weighing 50kg at 169cm. I have been watched by my ‘family’ and some of my pain doctors very carefully because apparently my weight is border line underweight. I am not 100% sure on how this will work or how I will actually end it but one of my main concerns was that my ‘family’ would have to find my body. So my plan is to lose more weight so that they get more concerned and put me into hospital again. Sure I will be monitored fairly well but I can lock myself in the bathroom and do whatever it is I decide to do. Over the past 4 days I have lost 3kg, from both fasting and exercising. I am working my way towards something a plan now, and I have never been this excited!
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So your plan is to get sick and go to hospital?
Well Shanny what will probably happen is that you will go to the hospital and they will feed you through a tube. I don’t think 50kg is all that skinny though.
don’t do that to your family, that’ll be really curel of you to do..
WHY are you planning to do this, did something happen?
Oh Shanny, your lack of eating sounds like it is mood related? What are you unhappy about …. what is rocking your world…. find out Shanny before it’s too late. What can you change. Maybe not a lot right now. What can you do in the next 5 years when you do have more power over your life.
I wish you all the best girl…. Love, friendship, and the beautiful things of life. Hold on …. they might be coming your way…. life is so up and down.
@I dunno:
Yeah they will, they have done it before it isn’t the nicest thing but it’s one small thing i have to put up with to get of out this world, then i can handle it. I don’t think 50kg is that skinny either, but apparently because I am tall my BMI tells doctors that I am very skinny. The lady I live will notice my weight loss soon and send me to hospital because thats the what doctors asked.
@Bella_87:
I know it is, but to be honest i just can’t do this anymore. Being depressed is very exhausting and I don’t want to carry on with my life much longer, and grow close to new people and eventually hurt them too. I gave been trying to work out a way to end my own life for about the last year and a bit, so this isnt a rash decision.