Can anyone of you associate with that?
It is said that self injury is just a way of trying to get attention but somehow i think there might be more to it.
Like when all you have ever known is pain, i think at some point you begin to love the only thing you know and it simply becomes pleasure, like reversing the poles. Instead of developing a love for life you love death and everything that symbolizes it. I love vampirism so much and I’d love to act out on it some time with myself and others.
In my childhood and in my youth I had these intense thoughts of pain-pleasure and it felt like better than sex. At the time I didn’t feel depressed or anything like that – it just overcame me and I took it like it was sex or something. I ran it through my mind like extacy and then I wanted to act it out but only got to cut myself once.