A whole year now, I’ve lived this hell
Yet no one knows for I wont tell
It seems that deaths not meant for me
Three times I’ve failed to set me free
By pill, by blade, even exuast
I always wake to find I’ve lost
WHY THE FUCK can’t I be
As happy as the ones I see
They go about their day and smile
Having a time, yet all the while
I sit here deep inside this husk
That bears my name awaiting dusk
If I get one wish it’s when I die
My soul wont see my mother cry
She’ll be ok after a while
I’ll come to her, show her a smile
She’ll understand I had no choice
It’ll be silent, I have no voice
I’ve never lost anyone close
Until those months, I lost them both
Faces etched in memory
I wish at least they’d visit me
The other night, a drunken thought
I cut my vein but it just clots
My group of friends, we’re small but close
It’s them that I will miss the most
The tall guy, his lady, and Mr. E
These ones I hope remember me
Always will my shade be near
Watching over them, in times of fear
I need to eat, its been three days
But I’ll just throw up anyway
Can’t keep food down, or even sleep
I cant swim, and this waters deep
Deep, dark, cold and rough
I’m tired of trying, I’ve had enough
All I can do is try again
Write a second note for my best friend
My family, I hope will move on strong
My friends, I hope won’t think me wrong
I never believed there could be such sorrow
I bleed and pray, Please No Tommorrow.
2 comments
Man.. you have some amazing talent… although your poem is dark.. it is still amazing in how you can tell a whole story in it and have people understand… people care about you and such talent that you have can only help you come out of this dark place. I only wish I could write poetry like this you should make a book and get it published seriously!
whats the point of that? no one will read it