I don’t know why I am posting this is getting way to hard on me. I have been with my bipolar fiancé for 9 years now and her mental
Health just keeps getting worse and she’s taking me with her. She has stoped helping herself and there is nothing I can do to help her. She is verbally abusive on me. I know because I am a man words aren’t supposed to bother me but after everyday of this for years it would affect the biggest alpha male meathead.Here is an example of what is said to me, I’m a loser, a walking embarrassment, my friends hate me and don’t want to be around me, ******, short, ugly, fat,. My job gets slow every year around Jan and Feb so she uses that against me and says nobody hires my because thY hate me and I’m not a real man. This has been going on for years and I can’t handle it. Her parents don’t care I think they are just glad they don’t have to directly deal with her anymore it’s on my shoulders now but isn’t my life worth anything? I feel I can’t get out of this and would just rather kill myself enough is enough. Now last the insults fly.
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Right now, go look up at the sky; it doesn’t matter what time of day, or what the weather is, just look up at it, and tell yourself all the things that your soon to be wife, and all the people picking on you has told you all along, and i want you to imagine, imagine being everything you have ever hoped for in life, and imagine somebody asking you how you got the the very spot you are in, what are you going to say? are you going to say that you have had people holding you back, and people brainwashing you to believe that all of that stupid middle school shit talk is true? HELL TO THE NO, you’re going to say that you cut that stupid shit off a long time ago, and you’re going to say that you made it to that spot by working your ass off and keeping your head up like your fucking nose is bleeding, don’t ever loose hope.
Don’t believe the stereotypical view of being the so called “manly male”. My father is also suffering from bipolar disorder, and I know it can be crushing on your self esteem and demeanor. If your fiance has pushed you to the point of death, perhaps you should move on with your life? Clearly she cannot be fully responsible for her harmful words towards you but relationships strive in harmony not in discord. In other words your in a pseudo abusive relationship. There is so much to life to explore and lovers to love. Do not strike yourself out of existence quite yet. 🙂
Hey Wait! She’s wearing you down to a weary thread so you won’t have the energy to leave. After years of crazy-making, gaslighting, I just got up one day and walked out. I had enough money to do so, but just the logistics of packing a bag was daunting and I’d become so isolated there was no one to go to, plus I was horribly ill after serious surgery because of a life-threatening disease. I was toast. Still, I simply had to give myself a chance and my ego (not sure if the healthy or unhealthy one) just couldn’t let him get the best of me. Fast forward: It’s been hell, but a better hell than the one with him.