and she was oddly alright with it. She told me she wasn’t going to freak out…i didn’t expect her to. I just wanted her to help me make it stop. But instead she said that if I don’t plan on killing myself and if it makes me really feel better then for the time being I could use it. But the thing is I don’t know if I will kill myself. When I cut it’s like I’m possessed and I’m scared that I might really hurt myself in the process. I don’t know, I kinda feel betrayed by her for not helping me.