Always been alone. Had to be strong, hide my feeling so nobody worried. Keeping head high and shit.
Family sucks. Asshole of a father who beated my mom and never cared about my studies now is trying to give me advise on how to life my life.
He left,i had to step up. Lot to carry, but its been like this since i was 10. My brothers cant do anything byÂ themselves.
Life sucks, every girl i been with broke up with me because it was either i was too nice or i deserved someone better..B.S
I’m tired of trying to watch for other,worrying about my family,failing at everything..God.
I thought about suicide a lot, sure why not?
but even in death i would still worry my ass off. Does it really end there?
pretty much this life was filled withÂ disappointed,depression,etc.
way i see myself..i see myself as a freaking tool everyone uses. hey buddy can i borrow some money? a ride? hey can u work for me as a favor?
sure i do it, not because i want to but it keeps my mind from thinking to much..grrr..
i try to reason everything, freaking curse!!!..
just want it to end..
rot and die doesnt sound so bad .