I recall about four months ago when I went to one of my friends birthday party. Another friend had brought his girlfriend and they were so happy all night. Then he gave her a kis and the sound of it was the sweetest thing I ever heard and later that night I just completely broke down in my room and cried so hard, because he doesn’t deserve it. He always takes girlfriends for granted, hes cheated on one or two and he broke up with this one, after like 5 months. I don’t understand why he keeps getting girls and I, no matter how much I want one, no matter how much I pray for one, no matter how much cry, haven’t gotten an inch closer to having one then I ever have. If you’ve read my other posts then you know I’ve mostly been complaing about this girlfriend situation, but understand that the last place I feel like I can get any love from is a relationship. I know I might come off as whiny and complaintative but please don’t judge me for it.
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I know exactly how you feel, I’m certainly not judging you. I’m female, been divorced for 4 years now, only been married for 3 years, but most of my life I’ve been lonely, and these past 4 years Ive tried everything to find that special someone, I even took divorce and marriage classes! And I’ve also tried nothing, because ppl say once you stop looking thats when you meet someone, well that didn’t work either.
I’m lonely as hell, thats my main reason for my depression, my divorce killed me inside, I wanted to shoot myself 4 years ago, but I’m just holding on and waiting for someone to come find me, because I can’t look anymore.
How old are you, if you don’t mind me asking,? maybe you have plenty of time and shoudn’t be pressured over this.
I’m 30, theres a lot of pressure.
I’m fifteen, sixteen in three months.
Brother….you’re 15 going on 16….I never had a serious gf til I was 18….and even that wasn’t a serious relationship…why are you putting so much pressure on yourself…what’s with all the crying? There’s time to be compassionate and empathetic for people in their various challenging situations…but this is not one of them. Relax….have you considered how much time you have? Maybe you have some growing up to do before you will be able to enjoy and appreciate having a girl friend
What is your intention for having one? My bet is, you are simply not ready for one. And if you’re thinking of harming yourself cause of this???
You’re vibe screams insecure bros…and girls do not want to be with someone like that….I do not want to be with an insecure girl.
That’s not a judgment, that’s the reality….so, why is it you are seeking it outside yourself and not cultivating love within yourself? How were you brought up? What is/was your parent’s relationship like? That’s the rub right there. I didn’t need to read your other posts to suggest that you look at those things. The more whole you are as a person, the better mate you will make for someone and the law of attraction is what rules. If you want a certain type of girl in your life, you need to cultivate those traits within yourself in order to attract that. Goes for both genders.
If you’re wanting more support/info, let me know….and chill out….you’re freaking out over nothing…don’t worry about your friend or what YOU think he deserves….is it improving your situation?, Want to meet girls….take up yoga, you’ll be killing 2 birds with one stone….you ‘ll learn to relax and get in your body and the class usually has lots of cute girls….good luck.
you have alot of life left to live kid, i wouldnt give up. i met the love of my life the second day of college. only ever dated one girl before that. if your a nice guy then you will met someone. join some clubs or soc’s with girls. you have to get to know people. hope i helped. love is the greatest thing you will ever experience. its worth the wait.
first of all u have to be happy with yourself, and love yourself so that someone else can love you, if u don’t love yourself, why should other people do that? I think that you’re looking for a girl to feel love, and i’m guessing that you didn’t get that enough from your parents and environment? First try to learn how to be confident. Girls love confidence. Even if your friend sounds like a jurk, i guess that he’s confident, so that attracts girls. you have to start thinking good about yourself, so that your attitude and energy will be good, which is attractive . think about the good qualities you have and keep repeating that in yourself! and one day you’ll meet the girl who loves you just the way you are. Before that you have to prepare yourself in being confident, nice, maybe being succesfull in school will help you also being confident. And just be nice to girls you talk to, be a gentleman and be caring, dont be a cheater like that friend of yours, that’s the worst thing you can be 😛
Sweet honey buzz buzz flower.
im 17 going on 18 and i have yet to have adecent boyfriend. i know you’ll find someone who will ove you, just give it time. !!!! try being more confident too it wil lhelp. and be yourself not a fake fony lik eyour friend sounds like.
@tobaboo haha but it’s true isn’t it?!
I think that waiting for the right one is the best thing to do for every girl, so you can know the guys really good and then can see who they really are. And also, if you give yourself quickly, they’ll think that you’re easy. so always play hard to get, even if you like the guy, don’t be afraid to reject him, if he loves you, he’ll still try to make you love him, some guys even wait for years for you if they truly love you, happend to me. and it’s just a way to protect yourself girls. at the end you can make your choice which man is really the one… dont’ ever rush! also a lot of men get bored after getting you quickly, for them it’s like ‘ oh now she’s mine, i have nothing else to chase for now..’
I’d love to have a girlfriend- some strong support- right now. However, I’m too much of a mess right now and just don’t have the strength to work on a relationship right now. What woman would enjoy a depressed man anyway?
So, instead, I’m pushing people away from me and distancing myself. There’s no point in adding another person into the equation if I might be leaving soon anyway.
@Radar: start working on yourself , don’t give up…when you’re distanting yourself and pushing people away you’ll get more and more depressed, so try to stop doing that. instead, people can make you laugh and be happy so you can forget your pain!
Bella_87: Why are you even on here? To feel better about yourself for encouraging people? Honestly, you piss me off.
stm1992, I dont think she was talking to you so why do you care? I saw in your post that you dont want anyone to try and talk you out of it but others on here want that encouragement and to know that someone does care.
To those who said to find the love in myself and to have security, if I was able to do that I wouldn’t be here in the first place. I come here so people can help me, the most love I feel is when people on this website tell me not to worry.
@stm 1992: no not to feel better about myself,if i’d want to feel better about myself i’d definitely not be here, I’ve got so many better things to do instead of reading sad stories and feeling bad about it! a while ago I had the same feeling that i wanted to die, i went throug a lot of stuff myself and I never talked about it with someone else at first, but at the end I saw that it was not worth it to die.so i want other people to think about it too,and find other ways.
lot of people who’re here are here to find someone who’ll understands them and just listens to their story, I believe that if someone has really decided that he wants to kill himself, he won’t be here discussing it,instead he’d do it straight away.
so if I piss you off don’t read my comments.