Emm don’t know how to start this off or what to say even, it’s like my 3rd time posting on this since December but go on this site everyday without fail and the stuff i read here is devastating.. I know my posts aren’t even half as bad as the rest of them.. my heart really does melt when i read them..
Swiftly moving on so yeah the past weeks have been O.K , well actually good, a bit too good to be true and thought and boy was i right.. well to start off i won 75€ in a lotto type of thing and that’s good considerin i’m the most unluckiest person on this earth.. and I was talkin to my Ex on Thursday night on the phone for the first time in over 3months we usually just chatted through Facebook.. and it was good hearing his voice again and talking bout stuff and i’m actually so happy he remembers all the wee stuff i do.. and i can say now talkin to him again made me the happiest i’ve been since we broke up….Fucccckk i’m blabbering on here and not gettin to the point……
Well Last Sunday this Modelling agency contacted me via Facebook and wanted me to model for them.. but I didn’t get back to them because my answer was a firm NO, because I interest whatsoever in modelling.. Like I’m not the worst looking thing in the world but like i do not in anyway have the ”model look”..
So then this morning i got a phonecall today from the agency..like it was so unexpected this man was asking me was I interested and I just froze i didn’t know what to say.. like he’s say I have great potential from what he seen in my pictures..BUTTTT… What he doesn’t realise is pictures can be decieving.. YES!? he doesn’t realise my legs aren’t shown in one photo..WHY!? because off scars all over my legs and knees… i have the most ugliest legs in the world and i’m not even exageratting.. NO-ONE has even seen them since i was a child when they were okay.. i always wear tights now or something to cover them up….(there i go again blabbering on) so then he told me he’d get back in contact with me later so before he was due to ring me again i sent him an e-mail being nice and apologetic explaining why i wouldn’t do it sayin that i wouldn’t be confident enough and because i have low self esteem..
So anyways My mother the manipulating ***** went mental when i told her, i mean she went ballistic saying i would make her so proud if if i do modelling ”think of the money” …. and also between me and my friend its as if theres some type of rivalry she said ” oh look you’d have a modelling career” but i honestly don’t care..it’s as if she want to get one over on my friend and her mum and the only reason she is adament for me to do the modelling is so she can say ” oh well my daughter is a model” and for to gloat and boast.. but i told her a few hours ago i was 100000000000% not doing modelling and she took everything off me my phone, grounded, and i was meant to go on a weekend away for my friends birthday and it’s up in my ex’s town and i was gonna meet him and his family for a few hours but now i’m not aloud.. she’s really mad…
And heres a better one before she walked out of my Bedroom she says ” No wonder Daniel doesn’t want you, go hang yourself you ugly bastard”……….
she’s knows how much that hurts me now i’m absolutely gutted that my own mother would say that to me..
My secret is If i had a rope i would…
Anyway thanks to everyone if anyone who take there time in reading this…
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Wow, your mom should respect that you don’t want to model, she’s probably lost in the thought of not having to pay for college, bragging right, and all that shit. Don’t let her tell you how to do your life, what career did you want to persue?
): your mom’s a jerk! i’m sorry you’ve had such a rotten experience… ):>
@ smiling on the outside – yeah your right, all she wants is the reputation of having a model daughter!! She’s so cruel, blackmailing me because I wont do it..and the career I wanna do is Social Work 🙂
@ maeliin – yes she is a jerk but not much I can do..
Oh yeah thanks for takin your time in readin my post and replying!!
Your mom is misguided, models don’t always gives parents good reputation, my mom would be embarassed if my sister was a model (although i’m in a family of tryhards so…)
Go for social worker heartbroken, you would be great at it, just remember to keep up on grades and go to college (even if she doesn’t want you to, but you know the requirements better than me). I hope everything works out for you.
Yeah I know, like I have no interest whatsoever in modelling..I’ve always said looks will gradually fade and what am I gonna have then..And to me modelling sounds boring!! And thanks I’m tryin hard yo maintain my grades so I can get enough points for college..
Ya, looks don’t last forever. You definately can do it heartbroken and remember, you are in charge of your life, not your mom