The future can’t be worse than the past

i remember the ‘bad time’
Right after Jake’s body was found I got into mutilation. Not just cutting, oh no. I’d do extreme things. Partial self suffocation, drowning, I hung myself a few times, knowing the belt would break. I really like electric shocks, it was an addiction… I loved unraveling light wires and stickin them in my has, flipping the switch…
Fire was another thing… I have burn scar everywhere… They remind me of what I am..
My scars are pretty…
And I love the made up stories that o with them
The cat did it
I tripped
Accident
Oops
Maybe I’m insane…