I Uh… This is hard. Opening up was never my strong suit… My name shall remain anonymous, as will my age, thigh I’m young. Too young for all of this some might say. But suicide and I have a long bloody history. I’m going to be completely honest here, as I never have before. I suppose it all started with a need to fit in…
In school, in life. People judge, and it’s hard. I live in a rural area… And I quickly became known as different, which after gradeschool became ’emo’ I remember the first time I cut… Before any of this… I was 7 and I did it just because… Something inside me wanted to… Idk. But I did.
I think I’m schizophrenic… I create these personalities in my mind, and before long I start to believe they are real… I kill thEm off so as not to deal. I can’t admit though… I lie and I lie and I lie. I’m afraid… I don’t know whats wrong with me… I just want it to be over… Because it hurts. I’ve tried so many tomes, so many ways…
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Emo what emotional that’s evey one. So why you cut?
I dunno I was too young to understand. I wish I knew. Something told me to do it…