I don’t have a reason to live now.. but I have millions of reasons to die. I thought of suicide but I’m afraid to do it. I always ask myself, why do I need to have this kind of life.. I only want a simple and normal life..but my life is really tough, and it sucks.
When I was a kid my parents separated.
My sister doesn’t like me, she hates me for no reason.
I live with my grand ma because my mom need to work abroad, and its really sad.
I don’t have a best friend, ever since.
I don’t even have a single friend here.
I hate myself..i always hated myself.
all i can think of now is dying.. maybe because its the only way. Ive been alone for years. so i guess no one will be sad if I die now.
I don’t have a reason to live now.. but I have millions of reasons to die. I thought of suicide but I’m afraid to do it. I always ask myself, why do I need to have this kind of life.. I only want a simple and normal life..but my life is really tough, and it sucks.
When I was a kid my parents separated.My sister doesn’t like me, she hates me for no reason.I live with my grand ma because my mom need to work abroad, and its really sad.I don’t have a best friend, ever since.I don’t even have a single friend here.I hate myself..i always hated myself.
all i can think of now is dying.. maybe because its the only way. Ive been alone for years. so i guess no one will be sad if I die now.
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I’ll be sad if you die. I don’t know you honey, but I want to. I want to know who you are, who the fragile dying blossom you are will bloom to become. You should try…because yes. I would miss you…I will be sad…
Death isn’t the only way. I’ll be sad if you go, makes me a hypocrite but its how i feel. Are you the Rain who added me on Yahoo?
How old are you?
thanks.. i didnt thought theres someone who still cares for me..
@social outcast: i think i added you in yahoo but you didnt accept? im 18 years old.
Oh sorry, i didn’t know who you were. Add me again, i’m just going work now but i’ll be on later if you want to chat.
You have too many reasons to continue on than you are aware of.
sure i will..
@latika: really..like what reasons? i dnt hve anythng now..im so lost and i just wnted to give up.
@ social: i forgot your email..would you mind if i ask for it?
No problem
livingdream85 @ yahoo.co.uk
That’s one reason right there, to find a way to not be lost anymore. Second reasons is to just not give up like every other person out there in the world.
but its depressing..thinking about possibilities. everyday of my life is a big mess..
@confused rain
You see ? there are here lots of people who want your friendship and I would even say some would sort of dream with maybe more as I can read.
You say that you are 18 and then ask why you are still living ? my goodness I could give you reasons nonstop during a period of 30 years. Because you have the whole life to do things, you have the possibility of making decisions to study things or to work here and there and plan your wishes. It is fabulous to be 18 even though I understand you dont feel it because now you are down and sad, but from our perspective we can see things in the right way.
So, take our advice and think, hmm these people are right, they are older and they surely know that at the age of 18 I have a treasure. I think many of us would give a lot to be 18.
best greetings
i appreciate all of you..yeah i know im still young..but what if ill be depressed until i get old? thats tough.. its better to die than to suffer for the rest of my life.. i hope you understand what im saying.. im really open for change in my life..to be happy again..but it seems impossible now..but at least im feeling much better when someone’s talking to me, especially here.
Your life is what you focus on…if you keep asking what if I have to suffer?…the same mind (YOU) could put all your efforts into focusing and intending happiness and fulfillment for yourself. It all depends into which basket you want to put your eggs.
You can focus on how bad things are, or you can stop acting like a victim and coming to your own aid by concentrating your energy on what brings you happiness without considering anybody else. If you keep allowing your mind to wander, that’s what you’ll get, no direction. YOU have to make a decision about what you want and go after it. There is no such thing as failure. To not attempt or strive is failure….You are multi talented. If I was a friend that lived close, believe me, you would know what to do. Start to eat healthy…fruits, vegetables, go for a run, and walk a swim….and get out of your own head. I just suggested 3 things for you to do, now are you going to focus your energy on another reason to not live? Come on Rain…wake up!!! You’re 18, you owe to the millions of people who can’t walk, see, think, read, who are wheelchair bound- do anything for themselves….and still they continue on…your excuses are getting boring.
When I was 18, I was working, being productive…pursuing my dreams and manifesting them. Wake yourself up from your apathy.
Tough love yes….get out of your head and into your body, and when you do that you’ll get into living life. Cheers!
@softsoul, you seem very nice and very wise, id like u to email me, kk?
littlesister2011@hotmail.com
hey softsoul..sorry if im really stupid..i appreciate what youve said. thank you.. il try but maybe slowly..
good for u. =)
where are you? your time is different than mine…
You’re not stupid…that’s the thing. I’m attempting to take the excuse away from you…get it? You either really want to, or you don’t. It’s that simple…it comes down to your choice. Many are in a situation where the direction and choice isn’t that clear, but you simply need to choose. And saying you’ll try….indicates you’re being wishy washy….hey, it’s your choice. I’m just presenting you with common sense and logic. Truly appreciating something is taking action…acting on the advice given. Many people don’t care..I care, that’s why I’m adamant with you. It’s all positive and good.
If you feel the need to apologize, say sorry to yourself for not helping yourself, cause you’re not hurting me, you’re hurting you. Cheers!