Why me? Why is my life the way it is? First of all.. ive been assulted since the age of 5 now im 15, 10 years of assult now im harming myself. I always need a boyfriend too be happy. but i want too be loved at the same time. i always want too feel special. but it rarly happends. my boyfriend of 8 months and i broke up. it hurt me alot. the pain made me want too have visible pain and i started harming myself. i have depression and im on medication. im okay with my life though. im running away from everything soon. on the 10th of april. that will be good. no more child abuse. but ill still put myself thrrewliving hell. if anyone can help or make me feel special or try change my mind feel free. but no medication qualified councellors & doctors can help me, im not looking for extra attention i just want love.