Why me? Why is my life the way it is? First of all.. ive been assulted since the age of 5 now im 15, 10 years of assult now im harming myself. I always need a boyfriend too be happy. but i want too be loved at the same time. i always want too feel special. but it rarly happends. my boyfriend of 8 months and i broke up. it hurt me alot. the pain made me want too have visible pain and i started harming myself. i have depression and im on medication. im okay with my life though. im running away from everything soon. on the 10th of april. that will be good. no more child abuse. but ill still put myself thrrewliving hell. if anyone can help or make me feel special or try change my mind feel free. but no medication qualified councellors & doctors can help me, im not looking for extra attention i just want love.
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If you commit suicide, the person or people that abused you have won. I know how it feels – having someone else have such power over you that you feel helpless. Ending your life is a permanent thing. You’ll never experience how incredible real love is, getting married or having children. You’ll never achieve the things you want to achieve – ever!
Please send me a message and we can chat further.
CJC1992
i dont really know how too use this thing. my doctor told me too. but no one can get threw too me. i dont want too get married. i know it will end in heartbreak. i dont need that right now. i dont want too be here. i was born to die. might aswell die today.
Oh girl… I’m so sorry …. no wonder you’re having problems and life sucks. OMG! I was abused as a child and it leaves problems that later I had to work out and through…. I was soooooo angry.
First, …. no matter what you did, said, dressed, happened, none of the abuse is your fault. Believe it because it’s true. It’s like going to the doctor’s and he makes a pass at you, even if I wanted it, he has a obligation not to do it with me. Abusers are usually older, often with some special relationship and it’s just plain wrong.
You are so not alone. I work in a public school and I can’t tell you how shocked I was to have person both male and female tell me how they were abused or are being abused either mentally, physically, and often sexually. It’s bad. So the message here is it’s not YOU! It’s the creepazoids who have been doing whatever to you that’s the problem and if they are doing it to you you can bet they are doing it to others too. If you weren’t here they’d just grab another victim. So you and I have to learn how to deal with these kinda bozo weirdos and how to stop all their shit and respect ourselves and how to teach others to do the same.
Sorry… but this issue really pisses me off.
I think you are an amazing person to have survived this far and I hope that you will continue so that we have more people like you around to help the rest of us.
Lots of love and respect coming your way….