I’m so sick of this crap! Life is bullshit, I don’t want to play after its rules anymore. Call me stupid or whatever I’m just fed up with everyone trying to tell me “You can’t do that”, “That’s not how it works”, “Focus on real life”, “You can’t walk on water”, “Well that’s just how it is”, “Smile at the camera”.Â I was born into this world and I never signed something that I want to participate in this game.
I’ve been gathering the money laying around on my bank account, under my bed and wherever it’s hiding. And I’ve come to the conclusion that … I’m broke 🙁 . I don’t have many valuable possessions either. Well my PC is somewhat high-end and yet not a year old. I could sell that.
Anyway, I’m thinking about doing some shit. It’s always been my opinion that life has no purpose so we should just do what we want. I’m at the point where I’m ready to give up everything. Yet I never managed to get off my ass. I simply don’t know WHAT to do. Nothing really motivates me anymore.Â So I think of investing the little I have in travelling. I want to see everything, but I can’t, so my favorites are:
-Australia (nice landscape)
-Russia (find some communists)
-China (interesting history)
-USA (I guess you just have to go there once)
Problem is I can’t decide where to go. And these places are also rather big and I have no idea where I should head to. So if anyone lives there or has been there I would appreciate every suggestion.
If I go one-way I’ll have more money to spend on … well I’ll find something. And I need the opportunity to send my faggoty friends a message while they’r in school saying something like “Fuck you I’m on vacation now >:D”. I just have to make sure I’m going to die over there.Â I’m a bit afraid though. What if I like it that much, that I no longer want to die? I would be completely broke and have just missed my possibility to go studying.
So, what do you think I should see or do?