I am planning on buying a journal to write a few point of views I have and use it as my suicide note.
I’m hoping I’ll end everything next month, on my 20th birthday and leave one big page saying “20 years too late”.
I have no real friends, my life is pathetic, I am extremely depressed and I think it’s all useless. I am desperate. I don’t want help, all I ever wanted was for someone to miss me, but that’s too much to ask for.
Despair is the only thing I feel lately. I spend hours staring at the wall and thinking to myself “what the fuck am I doing?”
Suicide is what will set me free of this meaningless, pathetic existence, yet I don’t know if I’ll have the courage to pull the trigger.
I am seeking for relief until the day comes, hence me posting here.
Feel free to ask absolutely anything or give your thoughts and opinions.