I’ve tried so hard to stay here,
to be alive, but no more. I’m
through with fake smiles,
through with staying alive!
I’m tired of it! Don’t you realize
that? Don’t you realize how
useless it is to hold onto the
damned? Here’s a thought,
let go. Tell yourself it’s not
your fault. Realize that it was
going to happen sooner or later.
I was going to disapear, die, and
never see you again. I would rather
die then be hurt again. I would
rather stay silent, never to write,
never to love again. I’m sorry,
this is my last attempt…
And it will succeed. Never again
will I see the sun rise,
or will I see your sad expression.
Never again will I know loss.
Never again will I breathe,
or dream. I’ll be off in my world
of darkness permanently. Good bye…