I am so freaking mad. My ex comes to my house the other night shoots in my back yard, I call the police and he files a restraining order? I cannot afford to represent myself from this right now. I just finished maternity leave and am at 60% pay right now. I owe the electric company 1500 bucks and they are going to shut us off just around the corner soon. I am so sick of being stalked and smashed by this guy. He wrecked everything my house and broke my face as well. I cannot deal with this. I had plans to exit just in case I needed them. I actually spoke to a therapist today for the frist time about this who was going to work with me. She said it was common for people dealing with pain to have exit strategies. I have had one too. I just did not plan on using it. I am so pissed that my life insurance is going to be held up in probate and 2/3rds of everything I have worked so hard for all these years is going to go to him. For what? Because we have two kids that are his. One he has never met and the other than he has abandoned 6 months ago. Fan-freaking tastic. This is too much for me to handle. I love my kids and I am the only person who has their crap together. I have a good job, a home owner a tax payer – never spent a day on welfare. He has nothing – not even a car and owes his ex wife 70 grand in child support and me 10 grand. Life is just not fair. I will be glad to not have to wake up tomorrow. I will just miss my kids. He does not want them so thankfully my brother and his wife will take them.