i am 18 now it started in 2005 my mom is an abusive alcoholic and has fought me ever since my dad pased away oct 21 2005 but its not mormal arguing its pointless she feels the need to fight and be in control of every situation and when i try to tell her otherwise she takes it as im being disrespectfull. about a year after my father passed she married some idiot off of singles .net and he became violent towards me as my mom was. he is also an alcoholic and does cocaine and influenced my mom start doing it along with him. when things would escalate to the point where they get violent they tag team me my step dad will grab me by the hair and twist me over backwards knowing it would hurt my herniated disc i try to fight back but the pain from my back is too much. every time its gets violent the police get called and i am the one who ends up in jail because either my mom or my step dad will lie to the police saying i was the one who provoked it and either bite their lip or cause blood to come out some other way this has been going on since 2005 and it is now 2011 i was released from jail 1 day ago for crashing my bosses van into her garage and apparently being violent towards my mom and she was the one who hit me and caused me to crash in the first place the reason i was over there as to help cut bushes down i stated many times dont drink around me i will leave if you do but she tried to hide it and got drunk anyway both of us had scratches from removing the bushes and she told the police i was the one who did it i cant take this i want to die i have no help no money to defend myself in court is this what the rest of my life will be like its not worth it i have so many bills and my mind is constantly revolving around it i dont want this what did i do to deserve this maybe if i kill myself they will know its not me it her causing the problem i dont see any other way out i dont want my life to be this way i have tried to make things right with her and to her the alcohol is more important than her son i want to die because of the one who gave me life i dont know what to do let her win or or die
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i say move my mother was in something like that and she move the first chance she got.
plz safe and try and get out alive
i did i moved out when i was 16 she will find me
what do u mean
if you die, in a way you will let her win. dont giver her the satisfaction, please <3
i left her house when i was 16 i am 18 now and she always finds out where i live and tries to make things right but it always ends the same with a fight and if i dont end it she will have the satifaction of watching me rot in jail if i end it she might feel remorse and even if she doesnt i wont have to deal with it any more
o ok i see but really death is not the answer.
try move out od state have u tryed that.
ive had time to think and i dont think now is the time time will tell
Get a restraining order on her. Tell them you want a PPO because of her alcohol and drug abuse. Explain to them if they actually search the house, they will find what she really does. Furthermore, record your phone calls, and answering machine, If she does anything verbal to provoke a fight, you have evidence. Also, if you’re asking for the PPO, it means she can’t come near you or contact you, also include your step-father, if you do go to court, you do have the right to represent yourself for free, and explain to the judge, without interrupting, and being as calm as you can the entire situation detail for detail, most people who abuse, change their story constantly, but the people being abused, don’t. Judges see through this so easily.