Nobody will take me seriously. Life is horrible i have like 2 friends 0 true friends my mom cusses me out every time i talk to her my dad wants me gone as soon as i finish highschool, i just hate everything and everyone, i can never do anything right, i cant even kill myself, i tried with some sleeping pills after cutting my wrist but i passed out and woke up 4 hours later : /, i cant keep a gf so i have given up on trying for one the last one i had said she loved me the first time then broke up with me for her ex that night, i just want to die i don’t care anymore everything sucks. I am also a horrible person and i cant help it.
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It’s almost the exact same life i’m having. minus the girlfriend part and replace it with a bf. Just wait things out, don’t let them keep beating you down. you may feel like shit but u arent.
Ya…you can help it. It’s just your parents never did a good job of reflecting love back to you whereby you want yourself. In a normal family environment, people don’t develop the way you have…I speak from experience.
You have the challenge of fighting for yourself. Careful not to make statements you can’t prove…you’re not a horrible person and even if you were…how does saying that help you. You can help yourself…you can take all the energy you’re investing in feeling like crap and focus it in the other direction which ultimately empowers you with the realization you’re a f’n great person…..everyone is. It’s your belief that has been miscoloured through your upbringing. Just because you weren’t exposed to a nurturing, supportive environment, doesn’t mean you don’t deserve it….and you have a birthright. Great people have taken their seemingly dire situation and spun it around to their advantage. Use your mind in service of YOU, be your own ally.
It takes courage and a serious choice on your part to do that. Once you do that, you’ll find more help comes in various forms in order to teach you what you need to know. You’ll be glad you did…and then you’ll be able to help others who are in the same predicament you were once in…that’s a big part of life. You need to take yourself seriously…do not worry about anyone else. Carve your own path…..sounds like your folks only care about themselves…which stinks, but all the more reason for you to dig deep and find some compassion, and empathy for you and rescue yourself…..because in truth no one else will. Hope this helps..fight, fight, fight. Don’t be afraid of your anger and use it as a catalyst to help yourself. Apathy and saying I can’t do this or that….things happen by design in order for you to recognize the challenge that we all need to love…I mean really love ourselves on all levels. We’re not taught it well enough….so, Wolfy..meet love..get to know one another and fight for your right to life. If others are not on board with that, forget them….you are the one that matters…fight my friend. Good luck.
Well said @ softsoul.
Wolfy, I finally made up my mind to stay alive when I was about 16. I overdosed without taking antihistamines and ended up projectile vomiting for an hour a while later. Life can suck and dying doesn’t suck any less. The difference is there are things in life worth living for. You need to live for yourself to find them. Survive Wolfy, you’re not alone.