This is all going to sound stupid, but I need to vent or something.. Me and my boyfriend have been broken up for almost 2 months now. We dated for 8 months before he ended things. I didn’t see it coming. But anyways, I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. He was the very first person in my life to push me into believening myself, or believing that I was actually worth something. When I was with him, I felt beautiful, I didn’t have to impress him, he didn’t care if I wore makeup, or sexy clothes. I felt smart when I was with him. I had never felt that way before. Now he’s gone, and I’ve felt like this worthless piece of shit for so long. I just feel like I’m not worth anything. It’s not just him, it’s my depression too. My depression is taking over my life. I’m at the point where I just want to give up, I don’t even want to wake up anymore. Before I go to sleep at night, I wish that I could just die in my sleep, and when I wake up in the morning, I’m almost in tears because I’m still alive. I’m slowly but surely giving up. I don’t want to keep getting hurt anymore..
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I feel the exact same way you do darling, about falling asleep and never waking up. I feel your pain for depression too. I suggest trying to go to a counselor and getting medications. 🙂 I’m always here for you even though you don’t know me, You can contact me anyway if you want you can ask.
Oh honey…I know how you feel..I know…but it will get better…
It’s been said a million times that a man doesn’t make you who you are. He made you feel like yourself, true? Well let that experience help you through to your next relationship. As women we all want and need to feel loved and feel like ourselves and men do that for us sometimes. But you don’t just feel beautiful, you are. And he helped you realize that. Relationships throughout life is all about finding the right one. The pain we go through is supposed to help us get through tougher things. The key is to stay strong. Wake up in the morning and look at yourself and say, “I’m beautiful, I’m better than that.” And move on with your life, even though it hurts. The pain will pass and you’ll find someone some day who is better than this guy, who will make you feel extraordinary. I know it might be hard to imagine another person better, but trust me, things will work out. And if you are meant to be with this guy, then he will come back into your life. But sometimes it just isn’t meant to be. That doesn’t mean you’re any less beautiful or worth any less. You are who you are and one day a man will look at you and see all your mistakes and all your beauty and he will love every bit of it, no questions asked.
I know.. but now all I do is look at other girls and think “wow why cant i be skinny like that, or have a nice body, or be pretty like they are” I know I shouldn’t think like that, but that’s just how it’s been for a few months. My gut feeling keeps telling me things could work with this kid if he’d listen or give me another chance, but I don’t know how to make him believe me. Idk.. I just feel so worthless all the time. Not only because of him, but because of my friends too. I feel like if I push everybody (friends family, anybody) away, and just let go of my friends and keep to myself, that if I do end it, I won’t be hurting anybody.
You are not worthless.
Change your title name. Your wings are not broken, and I know you don’t have three wings cuz that would just be wierd. skinny girls don’t have what you have. your heart, beating and beautiful as it is, is so much more valuable then anything else that you could possibly have. I’m so sorry that you’re distressed by these thought but they don’t matter. please listen, this is coming from a guy’s perspective, It doesn’t matter. I Love You.
I just want to know that there’s a guy out there somewhere that won’t hurt me. That’s just going to stick by me no matter how hard I am to handle sometimes. All I want in life is to be loved by someone. How old are you, “fellowsufferer”? If you’re my age, you’re very mature.