I have a girlfriend that I am crazy about and would do anything for.. but she loves to play mind games with me…
Everything will be going perfectly for a couple of weeks and she will purposely sabotage it just to drive me into a deep depression. A few days later she gets back with me and starts the cycle again..
I an already suicidal and it seems she is trying to push me over the edge with her games.
My plan is to decapitate myself using my truck and a rope or cable. I plan on calling her over to my place just before I do it so she will be the person who discovers me and will never be able to get that image out of her head. Also leaving a note blaming it all on her.
She likes to play the games but I think would be the winner when she would have to think of me and what she has done everyday for the rest of her life.
Have any of you felt this way?
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put that ***** in line show that ***** whaz up ya diq
Look I’m not dissagreeing with you at all, I honestly understand how you feel. But how would you feel itf you switched places. Your her.. Your in love with a guy, but you don’t know how to show it. You make bad decisions that you consttantly regret, but theres nothing yhou can do to change it. Your a littlte undecisive. But then he calls you to his house, yout hink this is finally the time that things are going to be different.. then bam! dead body. You’re scared for life, you can’t ever move on. You end up slowly killing yourself also. It seems to me you don’t love this girl, when you honestly love somebody you do not wish bad upon them, you constantly want whats better for her. so maybe you should break things off with her, move on and find somebody that deserves you. I’m not saying I wouldn’t feel the same way if I were in your place, but maybe you should think things through. Becasue once that happens theres no going back.
2014’s right…
i think if you listen to the song Whiskey Lullaby you can also get an idea of what will happen. in summary: girl breaks guys heart, guy drinks for years, kills himself, girl blames herself, girl drink for years, girl kills herself, that will b what will happen, in a way. maybe drinking won’t b involved, but the heart break and pain will be…
i hope you don’t go through with this plan…i hope you can find a reason to live…
and honestly if she hurts you this much, never see her again. you deserve better…
I can understand pain and anger maybe, but in a non-offensive way, and please don’t take this badly. I don’t think you love this girl.
I’m going through depression/suicidal thoughts and it all started on a break up with my ex, then a chain of bad events afterwards.. but what I’m getting at is, all this time I don’t blame her at all. I blame only myself. And I would never, EVER wish any pain on her. I found out she’s with another guy, and it’s destroyed me. I could ring her up and asked about it but I don’t because it’d upset her. I want to see her every day but I stop myself because it’d upset her. One of the only reasons I’m still alive now is because if I was dead I’d never see her again, although I don’t plan to be much longer, it’s still there, that thought..
If you were crazy about her then you wouldn’t dream of inflicting such pain on her, let alone any. I’m not trying to be horrible, cause honestly, I do understand that mind games, lying.. it breaks you. But if you really loved her you wouldn’t want her to feel pain. My suicide notes that I’ve drafted always mention how I don’t blame her, it’s not her fault and I ask her to live her life without guilt for my sake.
I do hope you find some way out of this depressive/bad thought phase.. and I hope she or whatever else is hurting you stops hurting you.
i love my boyfriend and i have thought this way before too, like having him be the one to find me but i cant do that to him it would tear him apart and i dont want him to live with that image haunting him everyday it would just be horrible. So please dont do that if you hurt yourself thats bad enough and it will hurt her to find out but let alone seeing it thats a whole new level just break up with her and get a new girlfriend that might make u not want to commit suicide at all. just do things for you!! good luck!! please stay here on earth!!
Please leave that fucking ***** 4ur sake. I care for and want to see u happy. I had gone through same situation. Now i have 100%kicked off my x fr my life. I still dont know weather i am happy or not. But i am not sad. U will get someone v loving caring just have true heart and bit pations.
It sounds a little like Borderline Personality Disorder, either that or the shattering of a young ideal. It is never a good idea to stick with someone who plays mind games, love is supposed to be love, respect and acceptance, not manipulation, distortion and fear.
You kno thats how ma fuckin bf is…he fuckin loves to argue to fuckin bits…we just ended the arguemtn…i fuckin love him…we in a long distance relationship…but he just says the worst and the most awfull shit to me..yet i love him so much…and wen he left me few days ago i cried for 4 days n cut ma self and we got bk together like a day ago and looky…we just arguened and now hes fuckin gone to bed….=/ i asked him if he;d cared if i was to coomite to suicide n he said “honestly atm im too pissed so atm idc but later mayb prolly i would” and i really wanna die…we been goin thru the same shit nearly a yr and i just keep on lovin him more n more…and without him i just cry n cut…cuz i cant get rid of ma feelings for him…i wanna get rid of ma self…
Thanks for the responses. I’m not sure I could go through with it anyway, it is just a messed up fantasy I play through my head. I really do love her but I think she will continue this behavior.as long as we are together.. problem is I am not very social and finding another girlfriend is not likely. Not sure what to do.
Me either…im gonna love him alot even if we break n crap…i dnt hang around with guys cuz he gets jealous so basically i have no dude friends..and ur right she aint gonna stop…so will he…they only care for themselves…dont you ever feel like your being used?? they come to you when they need you and when they’re done they just toss you aside…i understand if you leave her you gonna be in pain…i dnt wanna have another guy..if it aint him its no one…so idk what to do either but suicide…